So I have really slacked on updating lately, but I have had a lot on my plate so here is what really happened in the past two weeks.
I got up one morning about a week and a half ago and suddenly it dawned on me that I was going to die one day, weather I liked the idea or not. I found myself feeling afraid for where I would end up and what would happen to my kids. What worried me most is that hubby and I have some debt issues ( almost sorted ) and that I did not want that to be what I left my kids. So I took action and started to set up life insurance policies for hubby and I, a Will and a trust fund for my kids. My newly married cousin K and her hubby have agreed to be the guardians of my kids, and all that is left to set up is the funeral policies.
Now that all that is being handled, I sit here and wonder, do I really want to leave my kids behind, do I really want them to feel the trauma of loss, do I really want someone, anyone else raising them besides me. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. But the reality is there and if they don't have me, I want them to know that I went out of my way to give them the best in my absence. I pray that the Lord keep Hubby and I into old age, because I don't think I could bare my children suffering because of me.
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I got up one morning about a week and a half ago and suddenly it dawned on me that I was going to die one day, weather I liked the idea or not. I found myself feeling afraid for where I would end up and what would happen to my kids. What worried me most is that hubby and I have some debt issues ( almost sorted ) and that I did not want that to be what I left my kids. So I took action and started to set up life insurance policies for hubby and I, a Will and a trust fund for my kids. My newly married cousin K and her hubby have agreed to be the guardians of my kids, and all that is left to set up is the funeral policies.
Now that all that is being handled, I sit here and wonder, do I really want to leave my kids behind, do I really want them to feel the trauma of loss, do I really want someone, anyone else raising them besides me. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. But the reality is there and if they don't have me, I want them to know that I went out of my way to give them the best in my absence. I pray that the Lord keep Hubby and I into old age, because I don't think I could bare my children suffering because of me.
