Weigh In Monday Revision Week 3

So the first week of success has come, stayed a little while, and then ran out the door!!!
I don't often tell people this, but I am a very emotional person and when life is hard, food just tastes soo much better. And yes, life was hard this past week, so hard in fact that I just had to enjoy some red cake, lemon meringue and some tasty chips (french fries). They were just simply calling out my name and moderation took a hike. Now, two Kilo's heavier again, only takes me as far back as, well, what I was two weeks ago. Not bad, I mean I could have really over done it and who knows how far back that would have set me.

Yesterday I was sitting and thinking about all the people I know, who have lost weight because of stress. Why could I not be one of those people. I mean, you see them and automatically assume it was the stress that caused them to lose the weight. For over-emotional-over-eaters like myself, we must be living the good life all the time because when in the very same situation, we blow up like balloons. So I have decided to use my emotions as a motivator to get thin, no I will not be starving myself ( I would die from taste deprivation ), but instead of eating when I am upset, I will try and put in some exercise.

Oh, in case you were wondering, I was too chicken to do the Tae Bo. I just looked at the DVD and remembered the pain that comes along with it. And for a better excuse (mmm mmm), I have just not found the time. Is it not nice being human, I get to make these unhealthy choices and justify them too. But that's just it, I am human, not a Victoria Secret model from skinny-boobfull-sassy-Pluto. Lets hope they make surgery for instant weight loss, I would live on lemon meringue pie...lol

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Weigh In Monday Revision Week 2

At long last I have had some success!!! YAY ME!!!

Last week I did the journal for only a few days and started to notice a pattern with what I felt when I was overindulging. I always thought I was eating for comfort, which is partly true, but there was more to it. I opened a pack of my babies Marie biscuits (butter cookies) and after eating the first one did not feel satisfied. I thought about it for a second but did not take the initiative enough to put it away and started munching away until I was almost through the pack. I felt so guilty for doing this and then realized that I needed a distraction. at that time

I was focused on the biscuits and even though I knew I should not be eating them, did not convince myself enough to put them away. The other huge issue is the amount of food I eat at supper and lunch. I have become so accustomed to large amounts of food at one go that anything less seems like too little. I remember standing in the canteen (cafeteria) at work and complaining that their breakfast was too little and someone else saying how filled they would be from it. It all comes down to my mindset, and as I have heard a million times, my relationship with food. So I have now reduced the size of my portions down half way. Its been really hard to have 2 pieces of pizza instead of four but I am doing it so far.

I have not done very much exercise this past week but I managed to do 4 outdoor photo shoots on Saturday, running around on and empty stomach for most of the day. My muscles are very sore so in its own, Saturday was my work out day.

What was my payoff for my semi hard work?

I lost a total of 2Kg's - which I am ecstatic about because I am at least just under 100Kg's at 99Kg's
Its nothing huge but a good start.
Now time to tackle Thai Bo once and for all....OUCH!!

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Weigh In Monday Revision

As I said, I would be starting of the Weigh Monday with some really motivation this time. So I weighed myself this morning and really got hit with some motivation on the damn head. I weigh more today than I ever have and am two times ( weight ) bigger than my little sister who has a son and is a mere three years younger than I am. I had to take 2 when I was on the scale now just want to bow my head in horror and shame. All this not because I am just fat, there are many fat people in the world, but because I let myself go, I have let myself go so far that I am almost off the freaking ledge!!!!

So here I sit, feeling hurt and disappointed that I put myself in the wobbly situation. So now it really is time to take some actions. So here are the numbers:

Weight: 101 Kg's
Height: 1.71 Metres

BMI: 34.2
Body Description: Obese
And to top it of I weigh more than 91% of the World!!!

I have gotten a food journal and will be writing down every single thing I eat as to try and stop what I am doing to myself.
This first week's task will be to lay off the seconds. I have a really issue with having a second helping and have to deal with it. I love food soo much that less than what I eat is like an insult.

This is a new beginning and a start to a new me.... I am terrified.... goodbye sweet choc muffin...

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Weigh in Monday Week 3

So the stress has been piling for the past week with family drama galor, and even though this is a really lame excuse at this point, I still have not started really looking at the way I eat differently. I did however start cooking more healthy meals, but since I am still trying to get an oven, I can only fry or microwave everything that I make. I am getting better at choosing great recipe's to eat though.

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Weigh in Monday Week 2

OK, so I took the initiative to start this last week, its a pity that I have not been as diligent as I wanted to be. I think I ate everything that I was not supposed to last week, and unfortunately blamed it on not feeling so good...lol. The thing is, this is not at all uncommon for me. I always start out this way. I tell myself that it is time to start losing the extra baggage, but never actually get anywhere with it. I am not sure if this is a personality problem or if I am just not motivated enough. I would love to say that it was a medical problem though, then I would not have to blame myself for turning into Godzilla!!
So here are the stats for this week:
I STILL WEIGH 97kg's!!!
What, did you think that it had changed at all. I don't think chocolate and potatoes would have helped me lose a single kg!

The good thing out of this is that my hubby still finds me attractive, thank God. I don't know what I would have done if he thought I were gross. He must really love me though because when I look into the mirror, I see nothing attractive about this body.

So here is to a second start, even though I have already had two cups of tea with four sugars in each and have had both my breakfast and lunch before lunch time. Let see how this week goes and maybe I can manage to drop some of my horrible eating habits.

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Weigh in Monday Week 1

So this is it, the day that I have been putting aside forever. I just really hate not having to eat what I want, and I want everything. I love nice things so much that if I know there is something nice in the cupboard to eat, I actually get exited like a little kid. Wrong, I know, but I cant help it. From childhood I used to do a little dance when I taste something that i s really good, and I see I have passed it on to my son. It is so cute, but I don't think ti will be cute if he looks as big as me in his twenties, so here is to teaching my family about living healthy.

So here are the numbers:
I weigh in at : 97 Kg's - 218.8lb's
I am :  1.71 Metres  Tall
My Waist : 125 cm's        
     
I write this very calm now, but when I looked that the scale, I nearly passed out. I have gained 8Kg's since January and seem to keep getting bigger.

Food: The good thing is I can't diet and don't want to anyway since I am breastfeeding.
I have 'cheated' today so far with the yummies but will do better tomorrow.
I had one wheatbix with muesli for breakfast as apposed to the usual two. I had an apple but since I did not make lunch ( my bad ), I had two packets of Nick Nack's, a popcorn and a croissant. At least the number of sugars in my tea has come down from 4 to 1.5 and I only had one tea for the day.  I am still slacking on the water drinking and I have to make better food choices.
For supper we will be having pouched Haddock, rice and steamed veg. My food will not differ much from my family, except I will have brown rice and I will watch my portions as I used to eat for up to three people.

Exercise: I love doing aerobics, but I got the Taibo 2 DVD on Saturday and hopefully am able to use it from tomorroww morning. I also want to start taking the stairs at work and see how well that goes.
This is my Starting Pics:

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Weigh in Monday

I log on to different parenting sites everyday to find out more about ways and methods to raise my kids better and also to interact with the ladies that have kids in the same age groups as I do. Everything was going so well until they decided to start talking about weight. I though I was perfectly fine in my ever growing body and my body was fine with me feeding it chocolate muffins everyday. But when it came up so many times it the past two days, both of us started to wonder if it was time to stop telling people that we were carrying baby weight. I mean its already been 5 months, and this time a C section can't be blamed for not exercising.
So I have come to the decision to finally do something about my weight.


I have always been an overweight person, and my weight has really varied over the years, but I have never really put any effort in trying to lose the weight. I wonder what my hubby would do with a thin wife? He met me fat, married me fat and kept feeding me 'fatter'. But I think things have gotten to the point that he is becoming concerned over my weight.


The other day in the elevator, I spoke to a girl that I have befriended at work. She is overweight, bigger than I am in fact, and the first thing she says is "are you going to gym?". Thinking this is an odd question to ask I say "Why?". She promptly finishes by saying " well you have gotten so fat".
If I wanted to be rude (thought about it) I would have gasped and insulted her right back, instead I took the high road and decided to brush it off by saying " if my hubby still finds me sexy than I have no worries".
Man was I fooled. I decided to tell hubby about the encounter and he replied with something he has never said to me in the 5 years we have been. together,
"Well you are getting fat, I mean you don't stop eating". WTH!!!
I would have understood if I was not shocked and too busy putting on my hurt face. I mean you bring all these yummies home all the time, and now when they have all gone to my A$$, you have something to say.

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